Turmoil

Guard your heart with all diligence for out of it flows the issues of life.

Has God ever tried to gaud you and save you from something but you stubbornly refused? Has God ever tried to keep you off of harm and you failed to listen to the gentle nudging of the Holy Spirit?

Well am one of those people who can be stubborn. I am one of those people who often ignore or rationalise the warnings I get from God. But I thank God that he stubbornly loves me back. I love him because he takes care of me despite my carelessness. I thank him because he knows what’s best for me even in times when I thought I know what’s best for myself and didn’t know better. I thank him because I believe my destiny is in him and he wont let anyone who is up to no good interfere with the plans he has for my life. He shields me he guides me. H counsels me. He comforts me. He keeps me sane. He loves on me. He is my everything. He is my all. In times when I feel worthless because I have failed. H lifts my spirits up and tells me I am somebody. He tells me that I am still precious in his eyes. I am still valuable to him. He still has plans for me that are for good and no for evil. At times I wonder why I stray when I have such a loving shepherd. Such a caring father. I wonder why he loves me so. What can I give in return for his love? I am but dust. I am the most sinful of all sinners. But he keeps me still. Lord what can you do with me? I have nothing good in me to offer you. All I can offer you is my life in return. And o that’s why I commit my life to you saying that all that I ma is what you have made e. All I can be is who you can enable me to be. All that I have is yours.

When I look back at where God got me. How he saved. What he took me through. How he has graciously covered me in the past...I can only give him the glory.
At times it makes me feel like I have given him less than I can give. Less than I ought to give me. Makes me feel like I can be a better person for his Glory. It makes me want to shine that he may get the glory. I only know that I cannot shine without his light shinning in me. I know that I can do nothing without him. Anything I do in my own strength without his guidance amounts to nothing. My prayer is that he may touch me one more time m, Give me a second chance to shine for him. I have nothing to prove that I wont fail him again only that I acknowledge what I have lost and know that I don’t want to loose anymore and I am ready to fight for it.

May God grant me the spirit of excellence for his glory?

I hear God ay that the devil wants to steal my vision and I should watch who I allow into my space lest my spirit gets contaminated. All the war that am facing is about my Vision. It’s all about my dream and what God spoke to me 14 years ago!