Run to the mercy seat

For a long time I have been asking myself why I end up getting involved with the wrong kind of man. Why is it that at first I can feel the vibe and I know they feel it too.Then sudenly there is another woman in the picture and i beome the second violin... I am tired of being second. I am utired of being the back up. Let me tell you what it sdoesnt feel gooo dto be told .." I was just flirtig with you then I started having feelings so i had to stop an dstick to my chick" I mean on ewould wonder if you were gong ou and ny that i mean you have a steady girlfriend but are attracted to someone lese and start having feelingds for them ,isnt that sign that things may not be rosy with your girl and its time to call it quits? I mean woukldnn t that be a good time for you to pursue the feelings you have for this other girl? I done know. Atleast thats what i would do ..anyway . Its also not very flattering to be told that ,"If I werent engaged I would go out with you " or " I am in love with two moen and i have to choose, I have aconnection with the other womn but i am selfish nad iw ant both of you." I mean the second one beats them all , it s obviously from a very selfabsorbed person!. I am tired of playing second fiddle to anyone and from now on , its gonna be me. I come first . I a the first choice and the only choice. No one is second to me. I am irreplaceable. The next person either has llof me or non eof me. I aint throwing my pearsl to the dogs anymore. I have just realised hat, thats what I have been doing. I confess that i have ignored my spirit and my conscience everytime it warned me subtley to run from their advances. I disobeyed even when GOd tried to show me a way out. I just wouldnt listen. Lord I am sorry . I confess. I was wronfgto disobey your word and to get involed with peipe who are not born again. Forgive me. From now on , I will listen. and at the slightest warning from your spirit, I will run as fast as I can from any advances that i know you dont want me to get involved in. U have learned that just because someone isnt saved it doesnt eman that my emotions will automatically refuse to feel for them. I can and will probably be attracted to an unsaved person. My flesh wil obviouly vravefrom them. But it is my spirit that will kep me from them. it i sthe seed of the word that i splanted in me that will heklp me resist the tempatation. It is the word of god that will gaurd me.ANd so for now, I run to the mercy seat...